Where is God leading me?

I want to be aware of where God is leading me.  I don't want to just barge ahead with my own plans like I usually do and ask God to bless it.  I know God plants dreams in our hearts.  How do we know which ones to pursue?  I really want to work for myself so I can create my own schedule and therefore take better care of myself.


I am trying to build my tutoring business, but so far I have had no leads.  It's only been about a month since I started advertising.  I thought something would of turned up by now.  I wonder if this roadblock means I'm not suppose to continue or am I to persevere?  I have tutored before and had many clients during the summer.  When school started they discontinued.  I want to help contribute to our family's expenses but am limited to what I can do.


I also have a blog I've been dabbling at for awhile.  About five months ago I decided to step things up a bit and see if I could make some money doing this.  It can be found at www.fruitfulhome.blogspot.com.  It's about saving money and ways to make money from home.  I am passionate about it and get excited when working on it.   The only thing is I'm not that great with technology.  I will keep praying and see where God leads me.  How have you discerned what God wants you to do with your life, especially involving limitations?

Thoughts On Writing

I want to be a writer; but do I want to do the nitty, gritty, every day, up and down task of writing?  Do I have what it takes to be a writer?  Do I want to be a writer without all the hard work?  I don't know.  It's something I must explore.  I know I will not rest until I know for sure.  As far back as I can remember I've dabbled in writing.  I've always kept a journal, starting in the fourth grade.  Just getting my toes wet enough to give me a taste.  Maybe I thought if I never pursued it whole heartedly, I never would have to find out that maybe I don't have what it takes.

I've come to a point where I have to pursue this.  No matter the outcome.  I need to know.  And so I write.  Maybe I'll write for myself or maybe, just maybe I'll write for others and let them into my world for a time.

New things to adjust to

Well I guess it's been a while since I've posted.  A few new things have started since I was last here.  My kids have started school and I started a new job two weeks ago.  It was a very hard decision for me.  I really wanted to work on my tutoring business so I could work at home.  I may still do this part time.  I applied at a day care and preschool for a part time position.  I was suppose to be working with the two year olds as an aid.  At the last minute the owner asked me if I was interested in the preschool teacher position.  I love working with that age group and that's the position I had at my former job.

The reason it was a hard decision was that I would need to be there earlier in the morning and I was thinking that I would have to take work home, being the head teacher.  She said I would rarely have to take things home.  So I decided to be honest with her about my illness and my reservations.  Something I don't usually do.  I figured what have I got to lose?  I knew I still had my tutoring job.  I told her I would try it.  I do like the job, but I have been so wiped out lately.

My kids have to leave for the bus by 6:35.  (I personally think that is way too early.)  I have been coming home from work and just crashing until an hour later when the kids come home.  At least I have that hour.  I am hoping that my body will become a little more use to it. 

How do you handle juggling a job, kids and a house when you have limitations?

I wanted to share with you about a webcast coming out.  On September 6th at 8:00 Est time there will be a webcast called "Say Yes to God".  It will be with author Lysa Terkeurst and Ann Voskamp.  Ann Voskamp is the author of One Thousand Gifts.  I've only read snippets of the book.  I'm on a waiting list at the library.  It looks like a really good, though provoking book.  Sign up at www.lysaterkeurst.com.

Ever Feel Discouraged?

My doctor put me on a gluten free diet a month ago hoping it would ease some of my fibromyalgia symptoms.  So far not only have I not felt better, I feel worse!  She wants me to stay on it for another two months.   She did say it could make me feel worse at first.  I'm thinking though that after a month I should at least not be feeling worse.  Most of the people I've read about or talked to didn't have this problem when going on a gluten free diet.

I'm trying to have a positive attitude, but it's hard to stay away from your favorite foods when you are not seeing results.  I'm thinking maybe there is gluten in my meds that I'm not aware of.  I'm not sure.  I'm going to hang in there and pray for God to help me get through another two months.   Is anyone else on a gluten free diet and not seen results quickly?  I'd love to hear from you.

JOY IN THE SMALL THINGS

I got the chance to volunteer at a nursing home yesterday with my kids.  Something I hadn't done since I was a teenager myself.  My small group at church has been putting together service projects that we can do with our children.  I think it's a great idea.  It's always bothered me that I am not always able to volunteer in the ways I would like.

We helped them play bingo. Something so simple, but turned into something so meaningful.  I was so moved by the way my kids helped out.  They were not thrilled about going, but I gave them no choice.  They do not have any experience being around the elderly.  I knew they were a little nervous.  I told them just to smile, talk in a loud voice and look into their eyes.  A lady asked my son to wheel her back to her room.  It made me so happy to see them in this new environment.  It also gave me a chance not to think of my aches and pains as much.  I hope we get to do it again.

Changes Are Coming

I can't believe another year of school is right around the corner.  My kids start September 7th.  The summer always speeds by way to fast.  I think it's because I never want it to end.  There are no homework deadlines, no early morning wake up calls, no tight schedules.  My daughter will be going into tenth grade.  Where does the time go?  My son will be entering seventh grade and will be in a new building.  He is feeling uneasy about the whole thing. 


I am in the process of looking for a new part time job.  I'm feeling uneasy about that.  Will I find the right thing?  Will the hours work for me?  Will I have enough stamina?  I am looking for a preschool job.  That is what I'm good at.  I'm also trying to grow my tutoring business.  What I'd like to do eventually is only do the tutoring and be able to make my own schedule.  That would be wonderful.  I'm also getting back to blogging.  I have another blog that can be found at www.fruitfulhome.blogspot.com.  It is about making money from home and saving money.  I don't know where it will take me.  I don't always like living with the unknown.  There are so many of them.  Actually our whole life is an unknown to some degree.  Only God know where certain things will take us.  we just have to trust Him and go along for the ride!  What are some changes you see coming up for the new school year?